Yes, I'm actually watching Star Wars Movies

Yes, I’m actually watching Star Wars movies. This is an inside joke. Those that really know me understand this joke, so the question is…..do you really know me? I’m watching IV – The New Hope, one of the better films. I watched the end of the Sith film, nah, definitely not good. The best of the film series of course is V – Empire Strikes Back. I remember when I first saw IV back when it was I (Did you know that originally there were supposed to be a total of IX – but things don’t always turn out like you think they will). I was seventeen. Luke was young, dashing, blond locks shining as the sun set, his baby blues staring dreamily into space as he wished for the skies. It was an awe moment; similar to the one my own girls now have when they see their movie moment with some gangly, high school boy, with dark locks hanging in his eyes as he jumps up and down and sings about his teenage angst. Hmmm, I think my IV moment is definitely better than their teenage angst movie moment.

I haven’t written in a while. Things don’t always turn out like you expect them to. I stopped working in June. Things have changed. I find it hard to...... Smile. Think. Breathe. Laugh. I go through motions, I’m good at motions. Writing, a love, has become painful. So today I am writing gibberish in hopes that it will allow me to start taking baby steps. Move, walk. There is so much darkness and pain. Do you ever get use to it?

Okay…..it’s the big fight between Darth and Obie Wan…..need to go. It’s time to go back to the motions.