Really Bad Lately

I haven’t written much lately. It’s been really bad ……but not because of the radiation, not because of chemo but because of something really stupid….the stomach flu.

I am achy, tired, and have been throwing up for the last three days. A simple thing like the flu and I feel worse than if a mac truck had hit me. My doctor tells me it’s been going around the island. Try to drink lots of fluids. Try….yeah, right.

I remember when I was a little girl, my mom used to give me grape juice mixed with 7-up when I had the stomach flu. I only liked it when I had the flu. I guess her mom had given it to her when she had been a child. I had a frou-frou room that only a mother could love, with canopy bed and pink roses. I remember when I was sick she used to hold my hand and wipe my face and brow with a cool washcloth every time after I threw up. Sometimes I wish I was that little girl, sipping grape juice and 7-up and my mom was holding my hand. It’s just been bad lately.

I can’t think of anything else to write tonight, I’m tired and just want to crawl into bed and dream of being of little girl whose mom used to hold her hand.